So, I’m still not in very much of a funk about the change in school stuff. Some people have made the suggestion that I go talk to a guidance counselor at the school, which I might do next week. Another made the suggestion that I look into what other schools in the area offer. I’m thinking them through.
I have to be honest here and say that I’m really more relieved than upset or confused. When I said yesterday that I was feeling rudderless and without a map, it was more to say that I am out on the water alone and am finally not being pushed or externally directed for the first time in a long while. It’s surprisingly calm and quiet and, dare I say it, peaceful out here.
It reminds me of the times on our recent camping/hiking trip where we would head out, off the known trail, with no real itinerary, goal, or schedule, and just follow our interests.
I’ve been lost in the dark before. That’s scary. This is a sunny spot. It’s nice here. I might just hang out for a while and think. I have that luxury. This may well be a purposeful present from the Universe. A kind of “thank you” gift for all the things I’ve done for others over the years. And if that is truly the case, then who would I be to look askance at a gift from the Universe?